Have you ever had an out of body experience?
I think that’s been my summer. It’s like I’m watching myself through everything. Detaching. I didn’t ever want to really, but I am somehow numb to all that’s going on lately. I’m scared that one day it’s going to all just come crashing down on me and I’m going to suffocate under all of it. But hey, that hasn’t happened yet.
In Rent, Rodger calls Mark out when he acts like this, “Mark has got his work, they say ‘Mark lives for his work,’ and Mark’s in love with his work, Mark hides in his work… You’re always preaching not to be numb when it’s how you thrive. You pretend to create and observe when you really detach from feeling alive.”
I wonder what I’m hiding behind. Even more so, I wonder what I’m hiding from.
Post, woman.