Fast.
So many decisions to make… Do I retake my SAT for a better writing score? What subject tests do I take? Is the ACT necessary? How much money do I even have for this?
Not to mention, where do I go? Do I stay here? Do I take off at 18 and go across the country to go to an arts school? Do I go to LA to pursue the acting thing during school? Do I do two years at State or UCSD or shoot for 4 years at a private school somewhere far away?
And all these decisions have to be made like, now.
Then after that it’s what do I do? Double Major? Major in Theatre and starve? Give up the dream so that I can live comfortably? Take on two majors so I can do both? Am I comfortable leaving? Do I have the money to leave?
Dear Lord, please guide me here. I don’t know what I’m doing. I don’t know where to go or who I’m supposed to become and I don’t feel stable enough to make that decision on my own.
But I have to. For once, no one can tell me exactly what to do with my life. I have to make these choices on my own. As a big girl. Scary.
You have a lot of choices, but please remember that there’s not just one right one. Statistically, you’ll change your mind a few times, even after you’ve started, and this won’t put you behind, because everyone changes their mind a few times.
You have a lot of options, yes, but they sound like a lot of good options. None of those options will ruin your life, and no single decision can do that anyway.
This is not Russian roulette, this is the counter at Baskin Robbins!
I know this doesn’t make it less disorienting, but hopefully less scary.
Also, “AHHHHHHHHHHH” is a very good tag.